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DAY 40: “An abortion would scar me forever”

March 24th, 2013 by admin

I just got home from closing events in Wisconsin … where they fed me fried cheese curds (look it up if you aren’t aware of these) and bratwurst. But the highlight was meeting a mom who chose life for her baby during a previous 40 Days for Life campaign … and now goes out to pray at the vigil!

Today is Day 40, and I have just one story — a very powerful story.

I’ll keep her identity and location confidential … but here’s the story, in her own words, of how hearts are changing — one at a time.


I found out five weeks ago that I was pregnant.

My immediate reaction was — have the baby. The pregnancy was unplanned, and the father of that child-to-be was no longer a part of my life. The morning after I found out I was pregnant, I started realizing what bringing a child into this world would mean for ME and MY life and MY future. I wasn’t thinking about the life being created inside of me.

I started thinking about abortion.

I have always been pro-choice, and most of the people in my life are as well. When I told the father, he said he could not have a baby — but he would pay for the abortion. When I started telling other people about my situation, most said I would be insane to have the baby. Logically, I felt like they were right. I am in no position currently to raise a child.

But in my heart, I knew having an abortion would scar me forever.

I made an appointment for a medical abortion at Planned Parenthood for the following week. Giving birth to a child would certainly change my life, and I knew I wasn’t ready for that. But I started researching what my options were.

If I had the baby, I could keep it or give it up for adoption and give a family the greatest gift of their lives. And I started considering how an abortion would affect me. I knew I would regret it and never forgive myself.

I decided to have the baby and cancelled my appointment at Planned Parenthood; but I didn’t tell many people because they would think I was crazy and try to discourage me. I felt so good about my decision.

I started reading “Unplanned,” by Abby Johnson.

[Note: Abby is the former director of the Planned Parenthood abortion center in College Station, Texas, who quit her job after witnessing an ultrasound-guided abortion. She is now involved in pro-life outreach.]

About a week and a half after I found out I was pregnant, I had a miscarriage.

I was devastated. I didn’t realize how excited I was about the life growing inside of me until it was no longer there. This has been one of the most traumatic experiences of my life. But I realized through it how wrong abortion is. I want everyone to know this too!

I stopped reading the book when I had the miscarriage, but I just picked it up again a couple days ago.

I want to get involved in a big way. I want to help women with their decision. I want them to know they would not be crazy to have a baby, even if they can’t be the ones to raise it. What can I do to help your cause?

Here’s the link to today’s devotional.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all you have done to make this monumental campaign such an amazing success. You inspire me!

Yours for Life,

Shawn Carney
Campaign Director
40 Days for Life

PS: Any final thoughts to share about this 40 Days for Life campaign? Please leave a note below.

21 Responses to “DAY 40: “An abortion would scar me forever””

  1. Gail moore Says:

    I look forward to the next campaign and for the day when abortion is no more…..may god guide and bless all…thank you

  2. Paul Cranley Says:

    God bless 40 Days for Life! Between China and the US we have terminated at least 380 Million unborn children since 1971. This number represents the largest holocaust in the history of this planet. And it does not even show how many children and grandchildren would have been born to those aborted children, which more than doubles the number.
    In the US 25 % of every graduating High School class is missing due to abortions 18 years before. Ask your High School graduating class to look around and think about those missing graduates. The Black population of the US has been decimated via this holocaust while we have the first Black president who is funding this atrocity with our tax dollars. Does this evil make any sense? Wake up America before it is too late!

  3. Patricia Brodie Says:

    The last day of this campaign could not have ended with a better testimony or prayer. To the young woman whose pregnancy ended in miscarriage, I offer my prayers and sympathy for your loss. I am inspired by the courage you displayed in following your conscience in spite of all of the pressures and judgments being placed upon you. You ask what you can do to help the cause – you have already helped by sharing your story and I hope you will be led to many opportunities to share your story with others so that it will serve as a light and inspiration to others. Peace.

  4. Joan Albers Says:

    my prayer: “Dear God, I thank you for inspiring David Bereit and Shawn Carney and all prayer warriors who pray outside abortion clinics here in the U. S. as well as around the world. I thank You that You have given them courage to accept this calling to work for the unborn. Please continue to guide them in all they do. Your will be done in all things. Amen.”

    My humble thanks to all involved in this ministry of Life. 539 known babies and mothers saved! How wonderful!

    Joan Albers

  5. Mary Says:

    Reading “The Agony of Jesus: a Meditation on Our Lord’s Agony in the Garden” by Padre Pio of Pietrelcina, O.F.M., Cap., where Padre Pio says
    “I seem to hear all the lament of the Saviour: Oh, if at least man, for whom
    I am in anguish and for whom I am ready to embrace all, could only be GRATEFUL, would respond to the graces I obtain for him by My great suffering for him! If he would only esteem the value of the price I pay to ransom him from the death of sin, to bestow on him the true life of the sons of God. Ah, that love which grieves My Heart more cruelly than the executioners will tear my flesh!” (Tan Books and Publishers, Inc.)
    Hopefully, those treasuring the gift of LIFE through 40 Days for Life, will give some consolation to Jesus in the Garden, in His agony, which He experienced on Holy Thursday.
    We thank Thee, Jesus, for Thy gift of LIFE to us.

  6. Victor Galipi Says:

    Praise and thanks be to God for life, for the Gospel of Life in Jesus Christ, for this our 40 Days for Life ministry, for the leadership of David Bereit, Shawn Carney and others, for each one involved in any way in this ministry and this Lent campaign, for 539 babies and their families spared the death and horror of abortion, for abortion workers who have quit and clinics that have closed or opened for fewer hours, for our part in the pro-life movement and the spread of the Gospel of Life that no one is beyond redemption and the reach of life in Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior. In His Name, Amen.

    I am thankful for this blog and the fellow laborers for life I have “met” here. It has been a great encouragement for me and I know for many others. I continue to be inspired to do more as The Lord leads and enables me.

    Now may the Lord inspire us and prepare us for a great Fall campaign! God bless us all for His Name’s sake.

  7. Donna Latteri, Dover DE Says:

    Sunday, March 24, 2013

    Today we will close this campaign with a prayer service in thanksgiving for the many blessings he have had here in Dover, DE. This campaign was our most successful and most well-attended to date.

    Through the intervention of the Holy Spirit, 8 babies lives that we know of were saved, and 1 from last year came to light as the father drove up in his car, approached us and showed us his 9 month old daughter, Alexis, that was spared from death last year.

    Despite the snow and bone-chilling wind, more volunteers bundled up and braved the front lines than before. The sounds of horns “honking for life” far outweighed the outlandish comments of the pro-death minority that passed by shouting out their windows. It was extremely inspiring to hear.

    We also had a front-page full color photo with an article in the DE State News by a reporter who initially was intending to report on the funding of Planned Parenthood. The director told her that there were “protestors” outside the clinic, and that led the reporter to us, and consequently a “fair” report on our activities.
    As a result of that article, I have had contact with others in the community reaching out to become involved in 40 Days for Life. She did us more of a favor than she could imagine.
    The reporter had no knowledge of Margaret Sanger, her vision, or the attrocities being commited behind Planned Parenthood closed doors. She does now!

    In Wilimington, DE, our brothers and sisters had more challenges on their hands this campaign. One of our prayer warriors was assaulted. But the fact that there were 4 emergency botched abortions requiring ambulatory care is the main concern. One of them had fetal parts left inside her.

    God has certainly worked his miracles in this campaign and the devil has tried to influence us…. however, we are more steadfast than ever.
    Thank you for your support and may God continue to bless and expand the results and outreach of this ministry.

  8. Shelah Says:

    These past two 40 days for Life have inspired me and kept the babies and women in mind and prayer. Thank you for all you “action” and helping me with my prayer.
    God bless you
    Shelah in Michigan USA

  9. Lisa Sarber Says:

    Thank you for daily emails – they have really inspired me to sign up and volunteer at Manassas. I have also been reading a chapter of your book for Lent. Some of the stories bring me to tears!

    One of the days the volunteer who came after me said he thinks there was a save – a couple accidently came into the pregnancy help center instead of the abortion clinic and they were considering keeping the baby since they were offered options and assistance.

    Saturday I volunteered with a young couple and their two young children. It is so powerful to see young children (I guessed that they were about 4 and 5 years old) holding signs that say pray for the end to abortion!!

    Keep up the good work. Your mission is very inspiring!!!

  10. Ed Benya, S.J. Says:

    The Honor of our Communion in Almighty God directs and guides us notwithstanding the geographic distances between Brazil and your diverse positions throughout the world.

  11. Pete Van Oss Says:

    Please post this so that others may know what I have sent out to all members of the Democratic and Republican Party Members:

    I would like to know why a great Nation such as ours continues to stand behind a law that enforces the option of aborting God’s beloved children when they are this Country’s greatest asset. If we say we are a Nation “created under God”, then why do we allow ourselves to abort the most innocent of His children? It is my firm belief that if we are to truly receive all of God’s blessings on this Nation, then we must get each and every POLITICAL PARTY MEMBER to work together to stop the slaughter of God’s beloved children. Only then, as Abraham Lincoln famously declared, can we truly say that we are a goverment “of the people, by the people, and for the people and.then with GODS help and by working together with a single mindset we will see a nation solve it’s many problems and grow and prosper into the greatest strongest free nation on earth.


    Leland Van Oss

  12. Judith Quabius Says:

    Thanks you Lord for giving all the participants in 40 Days For Life the strength, the courage, the boldness and most of all the faith to give of themselves so unselfishly for the lives of others. Thank you Lord for lives saved – the babies, the mothers, the fathers, and the grandparents. For all all are partakers of the blessing when the decision for life is made. I pray the grace of God on you to bless you with renewed strength and refreshing and you come to then end of this Spring Campaign and look forward to the day when all abortion is no longer the mindset of our nation. Pour our you Holy Spirit upon this nation Lord that we may experience the ONE THING THAT WILL SAVE AMERICA – AN AWAKENING TO GOD. This is my prayer and I would pray the prayer of all of you. PRAISE GOD FOR THE VICTORY OF LIFE.

  13. John Ranallo Says:

    Pax et bonum! Shawn,I praise God that we have brothers and sisters like you for “LIFE”! With our l;ove and our prayers. John Ranallo

  14. Dennis Powell Says:

    God does not waste our prayers!

  15. BettyB Says:

    Thank you David and Shawn for all your tireless efforts and commitment for 40 days for life and for LIFE. Many blessings on this ministry.

  16. Virginia Hanley Says:

    We should keep this up, the prayer, fasting and witnessing, untill it is no longer needed and abortion is gone. Praise God!

  17. Mary Says:

    Let us all remember the wonderful graces available through the Divine Mercy of Jesus, most especially on “Divine Mercy Sunday,” which is April 7th, this year, but even every day at 3 pm, when Jesus . . “will refuse nothing to the soul that makes a request of Me in virtue of My Passion.”

    We could all join our prayers together and devoutly ask Him to change hearts around the world, open them to Life and to Him, and especially to return the United States of America to God.

    The 3 O’Clock Devotion:
    Saint Faustina recorded these words of Our Lord in her diary: “At 3 O’clock, implore My mercy, especially for sinners; and, if only for a brief moment, immerse yourself in My passion, particularly in My abandonment at the moment of agony. This is the hour of great mercy for the whole world. I will allow you to enter into My mortal sorrow.

    “In this hour, I will refuse nothing to the soul that makes a request of Me in virtue of My Passion.”

  18. Maureen Sullivan Says:

    I thank our Heavenly Father for hearing our prayers and accepting our small sacrifices for an end to abortion and for the conversion of abortion providers, clinic workers, hospital staff, and abortion advocates. May we continue in this ministry so beautifully managed by Shawn and David and hasten toward the day when there are no more abortions.

  19. Bernadette Thompson Says:

    Dear Sean,
    Every time I get a message from you, I cry. I cry for the babies we have lost over the years to abortion. I cry for the families who have suffered the loss of their future. And I cry for joy at the work you are doing to save more and more lives of these innocent babies through prayer. I know that God will hear our prayers and we must be dilligent in continuing to pray. I pray daily for babies who are in harms way and I pray for their mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, and grandparents who lose the opportunity of knowing one of God greatest gifts, His children.
    I also praise God for the gifts of two new babies in our family this year, one grandson and one great grandson. Thank you to my son and grandson for excepting these darling boys.
    God Bless you always for the work you do.
    Bernadette Thompson

  20. Marilyn Duffy Says:

    Shawn / David — the only comment I have to leave is that the book is awesome! I bought a copy for myself and for my daughter and both of us were so moved by it all. We could not read just one chapter a day! I wish everyone I know would read it. It will certainly change a lot of hearts as well as all that both of you do to spread this message of life. I know that it is God’s power and plan that all of this is happening–but you are His messengers and we are all very grateful! God bless you both. Marilyn Duffy, Syracuse, NY

  21. Stacy (Indianapolis, IN) Says:

    Miscarriage…Yes, this woman who shared, unveiled the truth on the unnecessary suffering that many women could be spared. We must trust the Author & Finisher of Life.
    I’ve often wondered how many women who follow the abortion route would have had natural miscarriages. It seems that nearly every woman I know has miscarried at least once.
    In his mercy, God moved this woman to choose life. Bless her for sharing and now wanting to do even more.

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